First of all --

well , currently in th comp lab , in sch lah kan .
i am deaad bored here. pfts . done my assignment last week and free to go websurfing . 
it rained today , and i was freezing . went to sch with lissa , met kaymii , and headed with them including with , jam & wanblack .  yadayada , headed to classs , chatted away , then , now thys freaakin' IT lesson =.="  pfft , bod cramps ,argh . ishk . had been sneezing alot lately tao , recovered from feveer yestd tho . & akak won't stop mcging me -.- , accusing me of taking her earpiece , grrr . aiyooma , lepas nhy Englishh ?
i did my wo worksheets which was due last week yestr . and done tuesday 's homework halfway just now , and today's thursday ? -.-" pantat tol , malas btol la kaw nhy ayuni , grr .  nak type ape ehyyy ? uhmuhmm ,
ehyehy , saturday or sunday i want cut hairr ah ? okayh tak ? okayh kan ? GUUD :D
rimaaaaaas pey rimaaaaaaaaas oi !  okayh classmates songs are so irritating -.- , 
psps / bdk sebelah ako , bau HANCING ! , eeeks . 


- Nurul Ayuni (:

I'm sorry for not updating lately . had been busy with school , remedials and rehearsals . at th same time lazy . hehs . well , i made some time to head over to esti's on sunday to send me other lappy for repair .  otw , bought chee chong fan . heh . ate thr , and watch barbie and the musketeers online ? ahahas . thenthen , barbie in a mermaid tale via dvd . heh . i like xD andand , aftr tht watch upin & ipin . basically , i felt like a kid . and i love watching those movies . ahahahs . then we did childish things and spent my time entertaining nephews , and played nintendo  . and snaps pics , went onlinee . and fill up time while waiting for parents to fetch me .  monday , celebrated RHD , well i was hyper tht day , idk why . met kaymii early in th morning , and laughed like a crazy freakk . heh . then , had pe , and then english . then , recess , and then dnt and assembly , laughed alot with izznur and few other c.mates .♥   and went for dance prac. and went home .

today ;
Time flew fast . the day was like normal , except for during th 2nd period of lights and during recess , didnt quite have th mood suddenly . th rest of th days was okayh , aftr sch, met th rest , styed in sch awhile , then, went to wdland mart , well , it was pouring heavily, till we went under th blk , clashed into hariez& friends undr one blkn, yadayada , and when we reached at wdlnd mart , my shoe was flooded -.- , perhaps a swimming pool for ants ?. heh . ate , then headed to 7-11 , temaned haniz buy her cincau . thr , eeqin , iraah & wandanish{ i think }was thr. fooled around with kaymii , nisa & haniz and laughed like siao . keycohh .
went home , did things and nw blogging . pathetically lazy to do my homework ,  and for sch tmr , damn . 

bye -

today was okayh , morning went sch with kaymii aspernormal , school was normal.
aftr sch , temaned kaymii to mac , she bought fries , and then went to buy bubble , ate and drank b.tea otw to th bustop(: then went to the to library with kaymii  , there  saw manymany familiar faces . saw faz , boii & azrul .  then , Yazs & friends . then syaza . then , i cnt rmmbr sape lagyk ah . then , yazs , khai , hendra , lyn & friends ddk2 near us . yazs itating -.- khaii helped me alot :D and gave me $$ , hehes ! theen , went bought chee chong fan at  cold storage . ate it with kaymii . basically , i spent th day with kaymi :D  thats all.

psps / : blog technical problem cyket . heh.
bley ehy gtu? hehs ~


Faithfully yours ;
Nurul Ayuni ~

Physically and emotionally , i'm depressed .
I'm hurt yet dissapointed . i've been acting weirdly these days , and every second i feel like shouting and crying my heart out , yet no tears would come out . Teachers & Parents look down on me . Friends - I have no say . at least not here .  Cousins / relatives ? - too complicated .  For once , i wished to be happy . found old photos , 2008-2009 . slowly my heart aches ): I miss those moments , better than it is now. I've put aside time for talking on th phone at night to reflecting myself . I've seen th chnges in myself , and th changes in my life . sadly , everyth is getting worse . no matter how hard i try , i fail . till now , i wonder why i'm living thys life . i don't see the point to anyway . & I'm fcxking pissed off with my Parents , i'm tired of them looking dwn on me , telling me i'm useless , comparing me with my sister . i'm aware she's better , cleverer and independent than me . and for once , i wished they'd understand me . & every hardwork i put on , they'll nvr praise . & everytime i ask for help , they'll nag me and say " slalu tanye akak kaw , akak kaw tkd slalu mntk tlng , tk pernah kaw bwart sendiri pe ?"  each words hurts me , its like as if  , thrs no use doing things , when everyth i do is wrong , useless and pathetic . i'm tired being looked down on , i'm tired being scolded for doing nothing wrong , i'm tired of being picked on . i'm tired of everyth . Most Adults expect us to realise our mistakes when they themselves don't . Instead , all they do is accuse us . i'm pissed , hurt , fustrated and more .  hmms .

I miss my fringee la dehy , skrng daa panjaaaaang .  pffts .
planning to cut my hair & fringe again . rimaas uhkks .  i dunt likee .   hehs . well , i went to school with kaymii today , like usual and talk alot , then in sch , flag-raising yadayada , and went up to went up to class .  lessons was okayh i guess , mother tongue as well ? maybe . maths teacher didnt come , and i was annoyed by th relief teacher -.- , tk suka . recess was okayh , science was kinda boring , slowly my eyes got heavier , and slept for a few minutes . aqil kept hitting me -.-" sakeeet siak . pffts . then , ape ah ? oh, aftr sci was music , i was freeezing  .  art was okayh ah kan , did my work , and helped anil with his , baek kan me ? ahahas. then , aftr sch met th rest , and then , p library skola nan , kechyk , nisa & haniz . heh . met uhhyin thr , we talktalk and laughlaugh , then , moment later , kaymii  & raihann came , then fyy came . talk more laugh , akmal and hariez was throwing paper balls dwn kene ain nan fyy , tk dpt hit me :D naseb (: . itating jgk ah drng. heh .   left at 4pm and met , ellzy at cwp , then went to alfian's place . Ezah , Fadhli ,Acul & Udin was thr  . left th place at 6pm , wasted time undr th blok fooling around and bought tibits at th vending machine thr :D heh . ezah walk separate ways , and i walk with ellzy , then , went separately and went home , did my things , and went online . i am hungry now . my phone had been busy lately , day and night , tatawhu diam -.- itating jgk kdng2 , hehs . k laa , i'm blank now , ishkk , malas btol la nak p skola bsk . hmmpftts .  i want to eat now ,
byeeee .

Today wasnt okayh .
I was faking my laughs and smiles th whole day . and yeah , my heart breaks every second , and my mind won't stop thinking . well , in school did normal things , didnt talk much in mt . other period i tried to keep myself entertained to not think much , bhrt at one period , i kept laughing and laughing to calm dwn , hmms .
ended up , i couldnt . and yea, i was criously fustrated with my teacher for always picking on me -.-" , pekik tk gune , lawan alek pn tk gune , kept quiet ignored him -.- ,  i've been pissed off the whole day . argghhhhh! aftr sch was slightly better , went for dance , got home and fought with mum , da tuu , we shouted at each other , and then ignored each other , aftr tht fought with akak , da tu die biseng p complain , balasan die tolak pt ako , bagos -.- , i'm sick of everyth , and i hate favoritism -.-" ako sedar ako bodoh , ako sedar ako tk gune  , tk perlu pandang rendah la -.- "  ,  thys had been going on for years  , pujian pt akak , balasan pt ako , bagos skaly . happy ako -.-"  sorry if thys is full of complaints or whtevr .

and , arghhh , my back hurts !

Hellohh ? [:
day by day , my blog is getting deaaad x.x , my apology people.
so yea ,  went to JB with family yestr. well , it was okayh , ate alot . heh . bhrtbhrt , th mats punya la itating -.-" tak aman dunie . psh , bought , clothes , books , food and a box of cigarettes for friend and took out 3 sticks to give another friend , see how kind i am ? and , i don't smoke ehy -.- "  andand , bought gum too .
theen er ,  ohh , reach home at around 9+pm . dad was like repeating th word " sedapsedapsedap " aftr hearing th stuupid bullhorn , and mum was like repeating " da go , da malam da malam . " due to work and sch th following day .  so yea , reached home cleared things , and headed to sleep.  the next morning , drag myself off bed , and got ready for school .  assembled straight , flagraising , reading period , alaa , school was just normal . aftr sch , met th rest outside hall , headed to normal place , and went up for dance , aftr tht , my back ache like fcxk -.- , pfft. got home , bathed . and went dwn to pass things . then , went up and did homework .  thats all .

hmms , i have absolutely no mood today .
every thing is all falling apart , my heart is breaking every second , and tears are forcing themselves out .
days pass , and more thoughts are in my useless head . parents quarreling almost everyday , relatives drifting apart . friends ? haish .  i don't knw what to do no more . and i cnt help myself to stop thinking / wondering .
everyth hurts me so badly , and education starts trembling again . everything is turning worst . arghhh .  just kill me alr ):  nobody will ever understand okayh . haishh ..

arghhhh , stressss -.- , i cnt do my project cause of one piece of an ass nye powerpoint !
bingettt , i'm gonna diee like thys sooner or later with this shit -.- arghh . bingeeeeet tao nan nhy bende .
school pn , cykgu sungguh itating , membebel je tawhu . 

kk la , ako ckp cykgu itating , maken lame ako maken itating jgk , complain sini complain sane 0.0 heh .

woke up , went to sch with kaymii & lissa , met them at th normal bustop . then , headed to sch  , and bout greentea & panda biscuit at the canteen , and headed to class . yadayada , study here and thr . then recess then it was mother tongue , arghh , cykguu membebel sini , membebel sane , pekik sini , pekik sane  . cm siaaak . urghh . then geography , lagyk tk uke , mcm nak bunuh je drng tao -.-  bhrt thn , during geog semangat sia i do my work , bhrt in th end hand cramp . maths , teacher didnt come , then had to do task . hmpfft . one of th question , 5-6 orng ajar , satu bende i still dunt understaaaand siak , pft . bhrt th rest boley bwart ah , at least understnd em . did my work , tros , i continued reading my book . titled jacob's ladder .  th book my eng tchr told to borrow . i read from class , until sch ends , until at th canteen , while walking , while standing . heh . suzy , iraah , kaymii , lissa , nisa , kechyk all tgr . mcm tk pernah nmpk ako bace gituu. mmg tk pernah pn , tpy iraah pernah ? pft . kk , then , went to 1t1 awhile and yadayada , then naek class for history remedial . time flies faast .  then  , met th rest again . and went bck homee .  otw bck home , eeqin and mega scared th heck of me , ahahas (: zack was thr too ? lols .

now i give up with my project . at least thrs something . currently i'm tempted to watch tv . bhrtbhrtbhrt ,
i need to do my mother homework , cause mr rudi alwayssays " Ayuni nhy , tk pernah bwart keje rumah die . bawak balek , pegi skola , masa saye die bwart , bwart ape saye bgi kerja rumah lau cm gitu ? pemalas btol .  saya ingin menelefon ibu bapa awak ehy ayuni "  ishhkkk , slalu ckp gituu tao . itating btol la .  padehal die tk bwart pape , bisengbiseng je pt telinge ako nhy tao .   k laa , i think i go do my mt homework , if he make noise at me again , idk wht to say alr ahhhh . 

Takecareeee .

hellohelloh [:

currently in school . IT lesson is super mendaaak . mcm nak tdo gitu -.-
nyeet . bitch is sitting so far away ):  izznur face cutee . hahahs. this is so random -.- i've not done my geography punishmet =.=" and i've lost my geography workbook . maty ako nanti .  ehy , i'm sleepy .
hmpf . k laa , now gotta do seetoopiid slides on racial harmony ? lameeee -.-

helloh [:
felt totally lazy to wake up in morning . managed to drag myself off bed , and got ready for school .  went out and had a stupidly , painful stomach ache , then yadayada , was late for school -.-  F.t didnt want to sign me out for class , in th end he did , cause hys period was nxt -.-"  headed up to class and read my book . getting caught up in reading books somehow . hehes . classes was okayh , bhrt time flew slower than normal . i was yawning th whole day , and yawning equals to tears , now lets do math  , yawn + tears = Irritating .  boley pass tak ? lols , mepek -.- , k then , aftr sch , headed home and didnt attend dance for certain reasons ah . reached home , took a short nap , bathe and met ezahh and shahril , then clashed into peisi and ellzy came like finally , moments later , i went home , and slept on my sofa . i feel so tired today , vehvehvehvehveh TIRED ,
had been coughing eversince evening , and my temperature had been rising -.- , arghhh .  i'm dead bored , and sis is using my phone -.- cause her phone is dwn for repair , binget sungguh . k la , i think i want to sleep , veh tired . 

Dengan cintah ,
Nurul Ayuni (:

morning woke up , went to sch , met kaymii at bns , and rode th mrt to sch, assembled , and lessons blahblahblah. after sch , went to iraah's place , then me , kechyk , nisa & iraah headed to wdlnds
mart mac .then to ap , to teman iraah withdraw and deposit her monehy. and headed home with nisa & kechyk . at home , went online awhile , and went to fetch esti from sch since it was raining . while otw to her sch , met an unexpected guy in th bus , eeks. i was hoping he won't talk to me , yet he ask alot of things and eeeeks , i was waiting for my stop desperately . yadayada , went to greenwood prim , there , shahirin & fateha was thr too , such adorable girls tawhu (: then off to esti's place . and headed to wdlands chckpoint near thr and bought sch shoes , shorts and nephews keropok -.-" over thr , trserempak with wanblack , ahpish & dingli . bought things , and esti's shorts. and headed to esti's place . will be sleeping over , and tmr going to celebrate 4th july , american thingay  . sang songs w/ esti , ahahas . and while
otp with nabeel , he was laughed -.-" lols .  thts all .

Takeecaree ~.